Every year it overwhelms me. It gets easier, but I am still never expecting the amount of feelings that come with it all. There are so many Mother’s Day cards I read and I think of one person, there are so many I read and I think of another person. Yet, basically they are still the same type of card. Except to me one person I knew really well and do not see anymore and the other I am just now getting to know and appreciate and love.
Mother’s Day has many different emotions for all of us. For the lucky it is a day filled with a generational brunch and celebration of family. For some they celebrate the strong women they can call mom in their life. For those who are longing to be moms it’s a hard day. It’s very hard for those with moms who are angels. For those who are moms of angels it can be the worst. My mom is an angel and yet this year, I have a mom. My father has remarried and for almost two years she has been a part of our family.
Looking for Mother’s Day cards is a very hard thing for me to do. Cards meant a lot to my mom. I lived far away for college and moved far away. It gets expensive always shipping presents. Many times we would just send each other cards for birthdays, anniversaries, mother’s day and others. I do not really know how long it would take my mom to find a card, but they always were so perfect. She would always underline the perfect parts that spoke right to the person the card was intended. It made me feel special like this card she specifically picked for me because of those lines. Perhaps it’s the sentimental writer in me, but it is nice to have love underlined in flat out words for me. I never cared if there was a check or gift card in it. I just loved the underlined parts.
My mother passed away six years ago from Leukemia. I miss her often, but Mother’s Day is hard. Even when I try not to think about it, it is constantly thrown in my face with bombarding ads and commercials. It’s been much better since I am now a mother myself. I now appreciate it as my day and I love being able to spend the day with my family.
Now, I have another mother. Searching the rows of cards for the perfect one, parts were bookmarked for “mother from daughter”, “mother from both of us”, “like a mother”. However I could not find the “we are on a budget so all I can get is this card, but I love you so much like a mother and I am proud to say you are my mom and that I get to share my grown up life with you and that you are the grandmother to my child”. Somehow, the clerk did not put that sign up. So finally I found one that I thought would be the perfect card.
As my husband was writing his card to his mom and I was writing my card to my step mom, my husband asked me if I was going to underline it. I burst out crying, I had not even thought about the underlining in a long time. I had to think about it for a little while. I mean would she even know why on earth I underlined? Maybe she will think I ruined a beautiful card by underlining it, or maybe she will not get the significance of it. Then, as I looked at her card I looked at it as a mom and suddenly I knew she would get it. She is a mom, she is my mom. We have not known each other very long, but she knows I am a woman of words and instinctively she knows me. She knew when I was in the hospital to visit and call. She knows when we need help, advice, or just laughter. So I proudly underlined her card and mailed it.
Happy Mother’s Day Mom! I love you!